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Fear!

Dread..👽👽

I am been thinking a lot on what to write esp. for this blog, because I was afraid I would not be able to stand by the expectations.  The fear, the most powerful weapon which I always over played.. If I have to list the things that I am afraid of, the list will not end by a day..

Let me say, some of the best fear I have not overcome or not explored because there was no situation created to overcome .. that said, sometimes the best fear can be beaten in a situation when you do not have choice left..Time, Situation and the path that you choose to follow are the best friends to overcome fear..

I am afraid of💁

Being stranger
Until the moment
I smile & speak..

Of new rules
Until the moment
I started to practice

Of the embarrassment
Until I learnt
to embrace myself
 
Of the days it went
As I was not able to
Foresee what is stored in past.
 
Of being excel
Until I trained myself
To be disciplined
 
Of left alone
Until the moment
I choose not to be someone's last choice
 
Of heights
The fear of falling down
Suddenly
 
Of fast moving things
Because I just cannot
Handle
So let it be.. 😊

 

Saritha Subramanian

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